Wednesday, November 12, 2008
9:09 pm
Confusion is setting in and not going away. I am very unsure of how things will go or end up and I have little faith in myself. Should I just let the current take me or try to make my own stand? But yet, I dare not defy. This is a whirlwind period for me as I try to find my placing.It's something that I have never had to face before and now... I guess I finally understand how it feels. The pressure is immense, the current drowns me sometimes. I am just bobbing up and down in the sea. Surfacing sometimes, down under sometimes but no doubt still struggling.
Anyway, first part of training today was DRAINING. It was just the gun di segment. BRUISE. SCRATCH. CUT. BREATHLESSNESS. UNCONTROLLABLE BREATHING. SUPER DRY MOUTH. But I am going to conquer rolly-polly soon! I must!