I don't know why but suddenly I just want to shout out that I LOVE SC!
Seeing those on duty today wearing blazers, court shoes, stockings and long sleeve, I wish I could too. Haven't worn that since 50th anniversary dinner last year. I wish I could do duty because I miss it so much. Duty may sound boring and tiring but it has always been fun to me. Yes, we may have to suffer a little standing for so long in heels but it's when we get to talk and bond with each other.
Miss Yeo asked if we were going to join SC next year and it made me thinking again. Honestly I was rather sure at first I wasn't going to because I'm not quitting Vball and I'm afraid there would be too much to do in council. But last night my sister said I should join and after what Miss Yeo said today I think I should reconsider again. Being in SC has let me learnt so much and has given me so many opportunities. And of course I've had so much fun.
Anyway, I should be looking forward to everything in the coming days. Celebrating my sister's birthday tomorrow night and having Movie Marathon in school on Monday night. And Tuesday is a public holiday and I have no tests at all next week. But yet I'm feeling weighed down. I'm still worried about everything, about all the tests we had, about grades. Who can actually pull away from grades and say that he or she doesn't care. I like Geography but I haven't been doing well this year. I'm really scared my grades will drop this year because I seriously don't think I'm performing as well as last year. And I think I can't organise my time very well anymore. It's like getting worse by the year. I've stopped revising unless there's a test, I've stopped doing countless numbers of Maths questions. I can no longer find time to do such things and if I do have time I end up wasting it away because I'm so slow to start. I feel the pressure falling in and I miss playing. I miss going to East Coast to blade.
Oh gosh. I do need to work harder and jia you! Organise myself and my time! Make a comeback Cherie!