I don't know why but suddenly I just want to shout out that I LOVE SC!
Seeing those on duty today wearing blazers, court shoes, stockings and long sleeve, I wish I could too. Haven't worn that since 50th anniversary dinner last year. I wish I could do duty because I miss it so much. Duty may sound boring and tiring but it has always been fun to me. Yes, we may have to suffer a little standing for so long in heels but it's when we get to talk and bond with each other.
Miss Yeo asked if we were going to join SC next year and it made me thinking again. Honestly I was rather sure at first I wasn't going to because I'm not quitting Vball and I'm afraid there would be too much to do in council. But last night my sister said I should join and after what Miss Yeo said today I think I should reconsider again. Being in SC has let me learnt so much and has given me so many opportunities. And of course I've had so much fun.
Anyway, I should be looking forward to everything in the coming days. Celebrating my sister's birthday tomorrow night and having Movie Marathon in school on Monday night. And Tuesday is a public holiday and I have no tests at all next week. But yet I'm feeling weighed down. I'm still worried about everything, about all the tests we had, about grades. Who can actually pull away from grades and say that he or she doesn't care. I like Geography but I haven't been doing well this year. I'm really scared my grades will drop this year because I seriously don't think I'm performing as well as last year. And I think I can't organise my time very well anymore. It's like getting worse by the year. I've stopped revising unless there's a test, I've stopped doing countless numbers of Maths questions. I can no longer find time to do such things and if I do have time I end up wasting it away because I'm so slow to start. I feel the pressure falling in and I miss playing. I miss going to East Coast to blade.
Oh gosh. I do need to work harder and jia you! Organise myself and my time! Make a comeback Cherie!
I saw this primary school boy on my way home yesterday on the MRT and he took a seat after his friend left. Then he took out his maths book to do some questions! I was quite shocked. Hardworking little school boy. I don't think many of us or probably none of us did that last time. At the most we would take a book out to read. He put his big heavy bag to the empty seat next to him cause no one was sitting to act as his table. But when this more or less elderly man came in he asked the man if he wanted to sit. The boy's so cute and quite dong shi in my opinion. Later when more people entered the carriage he moved his bag onto his lap again. I'm not sure how old he is but he looks like lower primary. But boys mature late so he might well be not a lower primary kid.
Tuesday, April 24, 2007
I saw this personality test in Melissa's blog and decided to do the test for fun too. But the results seem quite accurate so I'm posting it too. I would have drawn a bigger and nicer house if I could but my drawing abilities are limited.
Based on your drawing and the 10 answers you gave this is a summary of your personality:
You are sensitive and indecisive at times. You are good at making friends and when the joyful moment arrives, you make the most out of it. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You are very tidy person. There's nothing wrong with that because you're pretty popular among friends. son. You will avoid being alone and seek the company of others whenever possible. You love excitement and create it wherever you go. You have a strong personality and you like to command, influence and control people. You added a flower into your drawing. The flower signifies that you long for love. It also safe to say that others don't see you as a flirt. You don't think much about yourself.
We had a long talk on JC subjects yesterday but there's more to come. And I was suffering because I was so squashed up and so near to the big screen. Anyway, I found out so much more. And I realised that I practically only really need Maths and Econs to do Business or related stuff in university. So it doesn't matter if I take Physics or Biology. I'm tilting more towards Physics though because I don't exactly enjoy studies on cells and all that micro stuff. I prefer the digestive system, respiratory system and such. Things that make me feel like I know so much more about myself.
So I'm most probably going to take the same combination as my brother and sister. I think it is in the family. =)
Saturday, April 21, 2007
Melissa wants me to do this. I think I need to think quite hard because I'm so used to the things I do.
RULES: Each person who gets tagged needs to write a blog post of their own 6 idiosyncrasies/weirdness. Then, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged.
1. I love to pack my stuff. And yes, the table must be super neat before I can study or even sit there to do anything at all. I must have passed Melissa some part of me. I may study half-way sometimes and decide the table's too messy and just suddenly start putting things in place.
2. I have become more... violent suddenly? According to Zhi Xin, Melissa and Eva especially. But I totally don't feel so.
3. I think a lot at night when I lie on my bed although I'm super sleepy already. Most of the time I'll get stressed and I end up not being able to sleep. Sometimes I realise I have so much to do, I'll organise in my head what and how I'm going to do my stuff the next day or something, sometimes I write it down. Or I'll suddenly remember I have something to do like my HCL presentation the other time.
4. I scream silently when I'm really angry but can't scream aloud at home.
5. I have a super short-term memory. Zhi Xin and Melissa knows the story already. I apparently said ouch when Jon Sung walked past my seat in class and probably hit me or something. But when he came later like in a minute or less and asked me if I was okay, I totally didn't know what he was talking about.
6. I've ran out of things to type, but then I saw this on Xin Hui's blog. "Jon Sung and Cherie have been the funniest these days. Finally saw how J-pers' temperment(sp?) can fluctuate with such great difference. " "Cherie's facial expression recently are very extreme. I cant describe. But they're really extreme."
There you go. Hahah.
Thursday, April 19, 2007
The past few days were so super tiring, including today. I almost couldn't breathe. I'm so glad all that is over. It all started from Saturday when I woke up because I thought my dad was asking who's still in the room. So I assumed that it was really late and time to get up. & so i slept less than I had too. And the next morning I woke up at 6.15am to sao mu. Which means I didn't get to catch up with sleep over the weekend and I was sleepy throughout the 2 days. Imagine being not fully awake and yet still having to study for Geography Test. From Monday to Wed I reached home at 7plus so I only had the night to study for the various tests. My class had FOUR this week and a maths quiz tmr. I couldn't rest to do anything else at all.
The tests today didn't go very well. I'm especially scared for Chem Practical. I'm quite a blur when it comes to practicals. I mixed up ovules and ovums which such a dumb thing to do for Bio. And for HCL all the options were so close! I just went with gut-feeling.
But I was so relieved after school. Melissa's super duper nice piano teacher gave me a ride all the way home. And she doesn't look like a piano teacher anyway. I love her car. I think it's Lexus, similar to the Harrier my dad had. Big and spacious. =) And I watched Wu Jian Dao 2 for the second time. I love the Infernal Affairs series! It's my all-time favourite.
Till now I haven't studied since I got home. But tonight I'm going to practice some Maths. Finally I feel more free.
Friday, April 13, 2007
I looked forward so much to the end of lessons on Thursday cause I thought I could happily go for throws training and play volleyball after that. But in the end I didn't manage to do any thanks to the rain. And then I looked forward to today because it's the Sports Meet but the atmosphere wasn't really there today.
I ended up throwing shot put too. Didn't know till today during the interval. I was so shocked, I thought Mr Tang put me out of it already. Got last again, like discus. The only thing I really trained for was javelin anyway but I missed out on a trophy narrowly. Took part in 3 events and got nothing for all. A bit of bitterness in me but yet another half doesn't care.
A bunch of us went out after that. Jurong Point was super crowded so we ended going to Suntec to eat. Then we went to Esplanade. It was my first time walking in the mall section and the library there. Reminds me of Lang Arts and how I feel inferior in that subject. We saw many lower secondary school boys from a certain school at the lobby there. I can't believe how childish they are and can't imagine that many of us were once like them. We went to the roof terrace too and then went outside Esplanade and sat by the waters. We were just staring at the things around and the peace made me feel sentimental. That's the word to describe it says June. It somehow feels similar to being sad but yet there's nothing to be sad about. So it isn't exactly that. It's just something that I can't put into words accurately.
After that I went to Settlers at Katong to meet the SC bunch. We left not long after I reached. Some of us went to eat chicken rice. A simple affair but it's always nice to have such dinners. =)
Saturday, April 07, 2007
I suddenly felt like skating or cycling at East Coast yesterday but given the condition of my blades, I couldn't and considering cycling didn't seem as much a good work out as jogging, I ended up jogging still. I went a little further though and almost crossed the bridge near VJC to East Coast Park. But I didn't in the end cause I thought I would look weird if I were to walk along the beach alone.
It still felt quite good although it wasn't my usual route. And as I walked back home super slowly, it occured to me how much things have changed. I recalled what someone said about me seeming to be happier. And I really think so. I'm a much happier and positive person today and I love school so much more now. I totally didn't understand the school rules although I still followed them and I complained about them all day long. And I used to think the prefects were overdoing when they caught people for disobeying school rules. Now, I totally understand why. I didn't look forward to school except days with Volleyball but now each day is full of fun. 4J is such a bonded class and compared to last year, it's like a HUGE change. Maybe it's the doings of a small container classroom. We're forced to be closer both ways. And the volleyballers, we're even closer than before and there are so many other people with the same interest now. And I love SC so much, I love the things that we do together.
So what our seniors told us when we were Sec 1s is so true. As newcomers, we wouldn't like the school but when we're Sec 4, we would. Except now we are Year 4s not Sec 4s. =)
Thursday, April 05, 2007
After school on Tuesday I stayed back with Mabel to study before going to Jubilee Hall at Raffles Hotel for Oliver Twist. As I was sitting in the canteen, I kept thinking of the open spaces, the field and the volleyball court. So we ended up going there to sit and watch a whole bunch of people play and study at the same time. Finally I felt at ease. =) That's just "my space" I guess, where I feel comfortable.
Oliver Twist was good. No regrets going to watch it the night before Physics Test. It was 5 bucks only anyway. And they did the whole thing with FIVE ACTORS only. That's super pro. It was a really good buy. And Raffles Hotel is so cool!