Wednesday, February 14, 2007
6:40 pm
We were really sad and disappointed. We wanted to much just to hold a throphy we could finally call our own. But our quest for that didn't succeed. We lost. We all cried and my heart really ached. It was the first time out of all the matches this year that I felt my heart pounding so hard and felt jin zhang on court. Luck was no where near us. Although I was quite certain before that that it would be a good day because so many people were wishing me luck and saying Jia You. Were we destinied to never have any achievement? It seemed like it was our fate since Sec 1. Tears came, we blamed ourselves but there was no turning back. I felt pathetic, felt like we were such a let down. I'm sure the teachers and Mr Teo wanted something but we failed to deliver. Sorry for the disappointment. & I've got to say a huge thanks to my sister for coming and being there. Love you to the bits!
Couldn't do anything constructive last night. I spent my 1 hour plus doing practically nothing. I was just meddling with my things but I just could not get onto anything else. I wasn't in any mood to do any homework or even study for the tests. During the announcement today tears welled up again. Mr Fong gave a encouraging smile but I quickly turned away instead of returning a smile. Opps. I just didn't want to make myself tear more. Imagine if I started crying up there in front of everyone. And by just telling Mabel about it I teared again. But at least I know Zhi Xin and Melissa are going through this too and we're going to get over it together. Actually by the time we went home together we were all fine. The little yi han still lingers though.