I am deproving in the things I love most. Liks maths(not that I really love it but it beats the other subjects) and VOLLEYBALL. I really need to be more optimistic. I need someone to teach me how to be and where to find optimism. I wasn't feeling very upset during training, I was just neutral, not happy but not unhappy either. I want so much to improve and to be able to do things well but I don't know how to. AHHHH!! All these that are happening are crap!!I just wish I can go on and on training with nothing else to do. I want to do things a million and a zillion times just to be able to do well but fact is I can't! It doesn't help when I keep on missing trainings. I am missing yet another on Monday, probably only able to make it for an hour if everything goes on schedule. It's not that I don't like the Service Learning but why can't it fall on a better date?
With so many things on my mind, I simply don't know which to address first.FRUSTRATING!