from happy to demoralised. that's what happened today. i was mad in class that wanting, mabel and yuan wei were so amused by me. but by like 3/4 into training i was demoralised. my level of enthu-ness dropped to i dont know what. it was the first official training without the sec fours. i miss their presence! anyway, i suck at shang shou balls. i cant spike properly without touching the net, my speed is of a tortoise. and... i lose i get sad really easily and demoralised. jiao lian thinks after one bad ball i give up but i try and it doesnt work. i dont know how... i still try but it's just i get so upset with my performance i cant seem to do well no matter how hard i try.. enlighten me!! i dont wish to be demoralised so easily nor lose that spirit in me.