Saturday, February 11, 2006
11:05 pm
im really busy with everything now. cant get my mind off school work. have angel and mortal stuff. trainings. every minute of my life is packed. that's why i haven't blogged in ages and now im using the com at such a late hour cause i feel the need to spill my thoughts out here.
i failed my maths test. and it's rather depressing. no more difficult maths tests that KILLS please. but i doubt my wish will ever materialise. everything in dhp requires so much go and read up on your own and take ur own notes kind of thing. it's not really what i enjoy, not my kind of thing but i will persevere! im just scared i miss out on stuff i need to know. and thnking about chinese, lessons and all are still okay. i get it and all. but think deeper, my chinese vocab is going to remain stagnant FOREVER if it continues like that. that totally sucks cos i think my chinese is lousy. i want to be better at it. actually both my languages are lousy and it's not like my science or maths or whatever other subject is good. so that leaves me with a blurred future. ive got no ambition! ive got no direction to work towards. and now that's worrying.
i feel really suffocated now. i want a good break again. i want more cny breaks. haa. but that's sooo impossible. i really cant wait for march holidays although i think i'll still have tonnes of projects to do. i hope not though. i want to rest and catch up with things around me. orientation was like weeks ago but the sc room is still in a mess with our stuff plus some cny stuff. and i really feel bad for not doing anything about it until now. so tmr i'll have to call at least 7 people to clean it up on monday. and i cant even stay there the whole time cos of training. next week's still going to be busy. training on monday, wednesday. tournament on friday. afternoon lessons on wednesday and thurday. field trip on tuesday. im staying back every single day. where are the days where i went home right after school for 3 days a week. oh and i'll have to eat boring canteen food for five lunches in a week.
BUSY is the word to describe me.
BUSY is what my friends know about me.