Tuesday, October 25, 2005
8:37 pm
mr tan tui gee is sooo generous!he just took out 10 bucks to treat us to ice cream. i certainly had no intention to eat ice cream at all.
anyway, our dream is shattered.okay, maybe right from the start it wasnt our dream, it was just MY dream. what is the "rainbow" now without blue, indigo, orange? white will not be able to form without those three colours you know. what's left for me now are just going to be memories and more of it. today's our last training and the whole team wasnt even there. i just cant imagine future trainings without krystal who just updates us with the lastest gossips around. without yixian cracking her stupid jokes and being just oh-so-cute! without seeing melissa panicking at the sight of certain teachers. thanks you guys for those memorable days still. as i said u guys are one of the best things that ever happened to me in dunman. so i just want new, nice, good, cool volleyball girls to transfer in next year. as in like the people of the same batch as me. hmm..that's quite a bit to ask for. actually i just hope they are nice people, easy to click with.they wont be able to replace any of the positions in team-o4 but nevermind, we will just form a whole new bonded team, like starting from scratch or something.
honestly i had expected them to decide to go. with the exception of melissa though. so today when krystal, zhixin and yixian came to the canteen and zhixin said they handed in the form already, i wasnt shocked. i dont know how i felt. i really wanted to just dao them for the rest of the day. then i got a little upset when i just stared into the blank air.i think i could have cried if i allowed myself to. actually i think i did tear a little, but i just told myself to stop it.
oh no, i should just stop here before i burst......